再见,四月

在我开始写主要内容先,先宣传下:当守护神遇上天使: 5月份电台访谈预告

四月要完了,我玩了那个人已快过了一个月...

考试要到了,倒数十天...!!!
我还没开始读书啊!!!!!
学记的活动又那么忙,天哪~~~~*我惨了*

最近玩着王国之心358/2天,很有感情.
因为主角们都是没有"心"的人物,所以感觉不到任何情绪,任何感情.
不过主角Roxas认识了同为无"心"的朋友Axel和Xion,开始慢慢体会友情,开始产生对感情的疑惑和了解...
是个很值得玩的游戏.

回到四月的日子,觉得过得真快...

转眼间都五月了,红蜻蜓小说比赛的成绩就快出炉了,重要的年中考试要来了.
时间飞得那么快,再过几十/十几个月,轮到我考大马文学文凭了,听了心中都怕.
怕,因为还没准备好,就如现在的我;有时却是因为已经准备好了,所以才会等不及那一刻而怕.
怕,怕考试,怕我太快长大,怕有做不完的事,怕我会再次让人失望,怕再次失去所喜欢的,所珍惜的...

我似乎怕得很呢~
其实,除了那些,我也怕一个人.
虽然我也怕我自己,不过我现在要提的是另一个人.
他很活跃,在班上很吵.
所谓的,是"褒"也是"贬".不过我只欣赏"褒"的那一面.
那个人曾经因跟别人玩"真心话大冒险"而跟我说"我爱你".
(当时真的是吓死人,接着的那一秒我很想过去揍他,不过太远了,懒得走过去...)
那时,他的眼神反映出一种天真,他的笑容很灿烂.
我现在不是在夸奖他,只是因为我缺乏自爱,不懂得珍惜自己,就开始嫉妒了他.
没办法,因为当时的他,有如一面镜子,反映出我曾失去的自己...
我还是要自爱多一些...

话说回来,我昨天很生气,也就是因为那个人!

明明就是我扫地,他竟然跑去扫!
虽然扫地的还有另一位,不过要帮就叫我扫!
不要擦白板就让给我嘛!我不知几喜欢那个工作呢!
我现在不用做值日了是吗?班长副班长不做值日是应该的咩?
你是不是在告诉我我很低级,连值日都要你去做?
然后,我和朋友出去,看见我们回来还坐我们位子不走!
要不是当时你在陪人做功课,我就立刻喊你走!
放学了就算,为什么我去课外活动练习还要看到你!?!

我很讨厌你!

你的出现简直就是在提醒我我比不上你!
我永远都是个失败者!
我讨厌看到你,或许是我要逃避"我是失败的"的印象,或许我自己另有秘密,纯粹讨厌你.
我·讨·厌·你
对不起

真的真的很对不起

我的四月,就这样和我告别了.

School Life (form 4) + Cocurricular activities = STRESS?!?!

Hey, I love my activities, but I can't keep up well in school too...

My grades were always great, but not enough to be 1st in class...

But I'm still in 1st class, duh~

I love my activities, and I don't take them for no reason...

But this Student Reporter thing is stresful, no wonder some may consider it a hard journey. They require from us a lot of attitude: Responsibility, Hardwork, Dedication, Respect, Love for firends and many more...

Now this is stupid, I am school's representative for the chess competition (MSSD), and my mom don't let me go~ Waste of time, she thinks, I'm not even as good as the chairman!

Do I have to be a PRO to go to competitions?

Hey, even newbies have their 1st times...(but I'm not a newbie in chess)

I'm just doing what I want...

Or maybe this is a way to escape stress in school?

Ya, school's a total stress, damn it!

Can't keep up...

All I can do now is to keep on dreaming~

And hope that my dreams come true~

School life... = =

Kingdom Hearts Nostalgia

I'm still watching Final Fantasy X-2 walkthrough on Youtube, then I suddenly went to watch Kingdom Hearts 358/2 Days walkthrough!

In case anyone doesn't know, the Kingdom Hearts series are a game series with touching stories and fun battles (although I hate KH COM). And Kingdom Hearts 358/2 Days is one of the series that made gamers cry in the end (that's what I heard, even if many out there didn't shed a tear, the story is still sad).

I was introduced to this game by a friend, Sarah, then I went to play it. After that, I went on finding out what the story was about, read the manga and novels, went to forums, and that would be the KH fever days.

After I started Final Fantasy XII, I stopped my KH fever and switched to FF fever. LOLx~

Oh yeah, here's a website to download patches to play KH in your pc.

Then now, I'm starting to miss the KH days~

Kingdom Hearts gave me a lot of inpirations, emotions and feelings:
KH - the importance of friendship and believing
KHCOM - the sadness of the lost of memories
KH II - The sadness of lacking feelings, Home again
KH 358/2 Days - Friendship, Spending time together, Loosing a friend dearly
KH BBS - Friendship and the will to restore what's lost
KH Coded - Being there for those in need (the synopsis really is touching)

No tears like Kingdom Hearts, no moments like Square Enix