Something to read when you're jealous of other people's life as shown on their Facebook wall.

Merry Christmas (for 2015)! :)

Today I stumbled upon an interesting post on Facebook (link), it's in Chinese so I've decided to put my translating skills to the test. It's something about what a lot of us are aware of, but then we don't recall them during times when we needed to be reminded of.

So here goes:

The pub is a mysterious place, race cars, brands, pretty girls.

You learn fast in a pub, first it changes the way you look at your world, then it crashes your dreams.

At these type of places, where there is no use of being humble and low profile, what people wants is very direct, fast, outspeaking, instant leisure.

Preys are always being sought out by people, as these people are turning into a beast themselves.

What's abundant here is the distorted body and mind,

A smile build from stones, is still unable to cover up the holes in the eyes.

People who seeks love come to these kind of places, yet what is lacking the most at these kind of places is love itself.

A woman.

Like may women, a women loves branded goods, LV, Gucci is just the beginner's step.

A little higher up and she will fall for Balenciaga, Chanel... but as the crowd goes, she will also like the same type of fashion as everyone else.

All these women wishes to have a Birkin before the age of 30.

One might as well ask themselves: "What do you want after 30 then?"

A man.

Like many men, a man wants a good car.

Starting with SLK, Z4.

Those more "fortunate" might go for a 911.

All these men's ultimate dream is to have a F430 or a Ferrari.

One might as well ask themselves: "After you've achieved all these, what's your next dream to chase?"

Materialistic, is one of the poor attitudes deep rooted in us.

We might have heard words like these:

"I've just met a guy, X. He drives Mercedes, BMW, Porche and a few nice cars. He stays at YYY, and he smells of Dior, Homme..."

Isn't it just sad , some of these people haven't even get to know the other person's full name, yet she had already found a place in his arms.

When you are accustomed of attention, you are slowly engulfed by these flashes,

slowly growing in the loop of materialistic and vain-glory, and lost your sense of self.

From ipod to imac, the most advanced selfie technologies, you already have them in your hands.

Wake up and look around, is there even a book in your room? The type which is full of words.

You know how to spell out Salvatore Ferragamo, without a mistake, but you don't know how to request a tissue from the waitress. Or even forgot that the word "napkin" exists.

Our generation started out high, too much of unrational dreams.

We drown in our favourite idol's tv series and movies, and think that we deserve that kind of life.

What we can't accept is the long wait, because we are so accustomed to being fast, faster and faster.

We wish to have everything at the best moments of our lives.

When we finally have them, what can we do about it?

Ask for more?

Even to be ridiculously rich, requires the accumulation through time, and the long wait before the special chance.

Look at our surroundings, is there anyone who really make a fortune before the age of 20?

To be wealthy and rich at 45 is already considered young, there is also an abundant of people who only achieved this at 50 or 60.

You think just by the little ability you have at this moment, you can own the world at 20+ years of age?

To spend, doesn't require skill.

We indulge in it.

But to do things hands on or technically, such as earning money.

We don't.

Students don't think too much of reality.

Graduates are always running from reality.

Unwilling to work.

Why?

We think we're so great, we know everything.

From what's the latest leisure trend to whats the newest hipster cafe, played all from GT3 to GTR.

But when we stand in front of a photocopying machine, we stare at it blankly.

Don't even know how to print double sided.

Looking at all those buttons on the machine, ust staring at it.

"How is this thing more complicated than racing?"

We have too many reasons to run from work.

Low pay.

Of course the pay is low, the pay for a month is not enough to keep up with your "flow" of a week!

What now?

If your dad's business is your business, then it's complicated.

You're the boss' kid, even the workers are trying to get their benefit from you.

They will teach you? You've gotta be joking. If they teach you, how are they going to get on the boss' (your dad's) good side?

Even the supplier wants to get the benefits from someone as "unripe" as you.

Just with that little CV of yours, even if you're being sold somewhere else, people won't even know how you died.

How bout' working at your uncle's company?

With that amount of pay you get, it's still too much for your dad to return the favor to them.

Your own business?

Are you kidding? You don't even know the basics of being human.

You starting your business will only contribute to society by paying back money.

To be honest, go picking some hands on skill yourself is more rational.

Our lives are interesting as we think it is, is only because you got your dad's surname.

Everything you have that makes you proud, is what your parents contributed to you.

Even if your face look a bit nicer, is still your parent's DNA, nothing to do with your own efforts.

We have a lot of dreams.

What kind of house to stay in, what kind of car we want to drive, what kind of life we want to live.

All these dreams, don't tell me you are waiting for your 50 y/o parents to finish it for you before they reach 60.

Growing up so many years, what have you contributed to your family?

Is there anything, that is worth your dad sharing to his friends about you?

None!

Taking off all the brands on us, changing into those plain t shirts.

Throw aside all your Gucci, LV, Balenciaga, Chanel, and stand at the subway entrance.

You will realize that you are nobody. People won't bat you an eye.

Pride, jealousy, anger, laziness, greed, lust.

All of the poor attitudes we are born with, had just been fully displayed by us in many different forms.

We were once drunk, can't tell between good and bad.

We like being brats, and despise honesty.

To sleep only before the break of dawn, just to rush to get ourselves ready on the vibration of our handphones.

And then what follows is another stage of drama, drunk in money.

The world we see is upside down, no tomorrow, no future.

Painkillers, medicine for headaches and alcohols, these pills are increasing day by day. And the moment when you wake up with nothing, you just don't want to face your life.

Suddenly one day you stand in front of the mirror and wipe away your thick layer of make up.

And you realize the 20+ years old you is beginning to look unacceptably old.

Looking up to your empty surroundings, the ground full of cigarettes and alcohol bottles.

Is this our kind of youth?

Is this your youth?

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Original post:

夜店是個神奇的場所、跑車、名牌、美女
去夜店學壞很快、首先改變你的審美、其次粉碎你的夢想
在這個場合、內斂和低調沒有市場、人們要的是直接
快速、虛張聲勢、及時行樂、
人們搜索著自己的獵物、自己慢慢地變成動物
這裡最多的是扭曲的肢體和表情
堆砌出來的笑容、還是掩蓋不了眼中的空洞
缺愛的人來到這裡、而這裡最缺的、卻就是愛本身

女人
每個女人都喜歡名牌、LV Gucci 是初級階段
稍微上點品的、喜歡Balenciaga、Chanel、但卻無比雷同地指向同一個款式
所有的女人都夢想30歲之前擁有一個Birkin
那當你30歲之後你還能追求什麼？

男人
每個男人都要有一部好車
SLK、Z4起步
錢多的喜歡911
所有男人的終極夢想、是擁有一部F430或者蓋拉多
當你擁有這一切之後你還能追求什麼？
虛榮、是人類最初的劣根性

我們經常聽到這樣的話：
"我新認識一個男的、叫XX、開賓士、寶馬、保時捷一系列的好車、家住哪裡、渾身Dior 、Homme"
太可悲、你連人家全名都沒搞清楚、就已經投入了別人的懷抱
你習慣了被人注目、你慢慢被浮華包圍
慢慢在物欲和虛榮的光環中、漸漸膨脹、迷失自我
從ipod到imac，自拍神奇，你樣樣都有
環顧四周、你的房間裡有一本真正的書嗎? 全文字的那種
你能拼寫出Salvatore Ferragamo一字不差
卻連問服務員要張紙巾都不會說
餐巾紙怎麼說、你告訴我

我們這一代人的起點太高、夢想的太多
我們看了太多偶像劇和電影
覺得我們就該擁有那樣的生活
我們不能接受漫長等待、因為我們習慣了快速、
快一點再快一點
我們希望在人生最美好的時候擁有一切
一旦真的擁有了、我們又能幹什麼？
要求更多嗎？

即使是暴富、也是需要時間的積累、和機會來臨前的慢慢等待
看看我們周圍、哪個暴發戶是在他們20多歲的時候爆發的？
45歲發財已經算年輕了、五六十歲才剛剛起步的也大有人在
就憑我們這點能力、也想在20幾歲擁有整個世界？

花錢這檔子事兒、是不需要技術含量的
我們沉迷其中
而對於有技術含量的東西、比如賺錢、
我們卻不屑一顧
學生們不需要考慮現實、畢業的人們逃避現實

不願工作
為什麼不願工作
我們覺得自己很牛B、什麼都會、什麼都懂
好玩的好吃的個個知道、從GT3到GTR台台玩過
去上班卻連雙面複印都不會
面對有200多個按鈕的影印機就傻了
這玩意怎麼比跑車還複雜？

我們有太多的理由來逃避工作
薪水低
薪水確實低、一個月的薪水也滿足不了我們一個週末的流量
怎麼辦？
如果你爹是自己的生意、那就複雜了、
自家做吧、你是太子、是大小姐、員工都拍你馬屁
教你東西？開玩笑、教會你、他們怎麼黑你爹的錢？
供應商都想從你這個嫩頭兒下手
就你那點閱歷、被人賣了都不知道怎麼死的

去那些叔叔伯伯的公司做吧
就那點收入、還不夠你爸去還人情的、
自主創業？
別開玩笑了、連做人最基本的道理都不懂
創業只會通過賠錢來奉獻社會
老老實實學點本事比較實在

我們的人生之所以精彩、只是因為你和你爸同姓而已
你所有值得驕傲的東西、都是你的家族給你的
即使你長的好看一點兒、也是你父母的DNA決定的、 跟你毫無瓜葛
我們的人生有很多夢想
要住怎樣的房子、要開怎樣的車子、要過怎樣的生活
這些夢想難道還要讓你快50歲的親爹
用60歲之前的歲月、來幫你完成嗎？
長那麼大你為家裡做過些什麼
你有些什麼東西、是值得你爹在朋友面前炫耀一番的？
沒有！

把我們身上的名牌衣服都脫掉、換件廉價、沒板型的T恤
Gucci LV Balenciaga Chanel 通通丟到一邊、
搭地鐵去門口站著
你就什麼都不是、沒有誰會多看你一眼
傲慢、妒忌、暴怒、懶惰、貪婪、色欲、
這些都是人生來便有的劣根性、
現在卻被我們發揮到了極致

曾經醉生夢死、分不清好人壞人、
喜歡混蛋、討厭真心、
在黎明降臨時昏睡、在手機震動時、慌亂的打理好自己
接著又是一場逢場作戲、紙醉金迷、
看到的世界是顛倒的、沒有明天、未來
頭疼片、解酒藥一次次增加、醒來發現已經一無所有、不敢去想所謂的生活、

突然有一天在鏡子前擦去厚厚的濃妝
才發現20幾歲的自己早已蒼老
抬眼看看空空蕩蕩的四周、和滿地的煙蒂、酒瓶

這就是我們的青春嗎？
這就是你的青春嗎？

Annoyance

Hellow, its been a while since I've last typed my blog.

There's 2 weeks left before my semester 3 of Bachelor of Pharmacy semester 3 ends, i'm still not very satisfied with myself.

Studies aside, in our curriculum we have these number of hours that we need to complete as co-curricular activities. Since activities with hours are limited and its competitive, everyone needs to fight for a spot. And being a credit transfer student, I need to complete the hours earlier than the rest of the students. So I decided to join a major event to get a boost of hours to add in (because this system isn't really fair and committee members of events give the activity spaces to their friends first even though the credit transfer students needed it more badly than them).

I thought it would be fine handling the major event and being a committee of a club (it's pretty common around that people being this busy). Yeah right, what's different in my condition is that the club's president is pretty much an airhead who does not take responsibilities seriously and ignores important stuff, which gives me more burden on handling the club's affairs. So the whatever load I have dragged me down on handling the other event, which in turn affected the other committees of the other event to be in more of a mess.

I remembered there was this night before a test and I was staying up late doing things for the club because the president has been in his own sweet world enjoying whatever ignorance he has. Then I ended up having a headache the next day, went into the lab, cannot think straight, screwed all calculations up and screwed all the results up. Whats worse is that this is my favourite subject for the semester. Imagine being one of the lowest scorers in class.

Other than that I'm also falling back in studies.

God I hope he's happy, it's going to make me sound bad but yeah I hope karma hits him thrice as hard.

So whoever is reading this, some of you guys might be aware of it already, but however, do not think that ignorance is ok for others. It might be the Malaysian teenage culture to say "aiyah, cincailah, sure can one!" at other people's face, however given certain situations, it would be more mature to be considerate of what your actions might bring onto others. It may not only affect directly but also indirectly trigger up a chain of worsening events for others. (Or just check out what the butterfly effect means if you do not get what I mean.)

Signing out.

小小检讨（发泄）录

我是雪隆区第25届学海学生记者。

活动当年，真的很忙（忙到幼稚的我不介意把学业看轻），可是当时的我社交能力也不是很好。认识的人很多，结交到很近的有几个。是个成长的一年。

近来，我整理我那看起来像是打过一场战的房间，看到一本书。一打开：哇，字丑到！（没办法，当时都没有桌子写。）

现在就让我陈述下那本书里面记载的一些检讨录，再加上近来的故事。

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新闻是趣味性的，狗咬人不是新闻，人咬狗才是新闻。当然，事件发生后当然要尽快有报道出来，不要拖延时间写，要不然那个人把一整只狗吃掉了怎么办？
（其实这一点，很多记者在学习中最初听到的就是这个人咬狗的例子了哈哈）
可是最近上网看到很多标题写得很夸张式的，可是写一半又不写一半，例如：
-这是今年最XX的YY！！不看你就out了！
-*某事情发生*姐妹们看了都惊讶，原来……
之类的标题，很吸引人对吧？结果开进去才不是类似我平时上课都可以看到的那些疯狂学生一样在玩的故事罢了。

投稿不用放优美句子，你又不是在写作文，别人语文能力不太好看不懂怎么办，新闻不用读了。
今天我才看了电视广播来，是悲伤新闻，新闻主持人却用了“他们就有了非常痛苦噩梦一般地生活”、“他们深深的……”之类的。好吧，悲剧发生，伤心是当然的，可是你怎么知道他们经过了什么啊？连记者也未必知道，更何况是新闻主播。（其实讲真，不这么说，新闻主播也没有话可以说了）

你的责任很大，不，其实每个人在社会上的责任很大。
有人负责制造问题，有人负责发现问题，有人负责报道问题，有人负责解决问题，有人负责八卦问题。
由于负责报道问题的人拥有把问题向社会广播的责任，所以负责八卦问题的人也要有责任传送正确的资料。
你知道那些媒体的官方推特不是很喜欢用蓝色的小鸟报告新闻的吗？有时候他们是看到别人推一些“故事”，没有经过事实的确认，它们也将“假故事”re-推。（这是真的从记者那里打听来的。）我也不知道后果怎么样，就只是听说它们丢脸了一阵子。以正式媒体的账户丢脸了一阵子，严重过那些在面子书上一直在share假消息的小朋友很多倍。

就像你走街时不喜欢别人一个人霸占两个人的走廊，还走到向僵尸一样慢的。采访人家时我们也不可以站在别人店门口。
不要打扰别人做生意，也不要打扰我买冰淇凌。

要表现的像个专业人士，就得做好准备，采访前寻找资料，准备好问题。难道你考试前感不读好书？考场够冷了，遇到难题等下又要冷场怎么办？
这个我发现到我在上大学的路程中没有做好的一点……

礼貌是金。“请”、“谢谢”、“不好意思”、“打扰了”不是小学道德课本说了就算的字眼。
采访常用的字眼，也是现实生活中必要的素养。
近来听朋友说她在排队等火车时，前面有一对情侣。火车来了，她要上车，那对情侣却在那里呆呆，她就走上车。忽然，那对情侣的男方就撞了我朋友，并忽然走在她前面，急着上车。等到我朋友踏上车的一步，车门就关了，打到我朋友的肩膀，而且很痛。然后那情侣什么也没说。好吧，可能他们不知道火车的门在关起来的时候撞到我朋友，可是上车前特地撞人不可能不知道的吧？
可能那对情侣真的忘了基本礼貌吧？反正我们SPM的道德考试不是很不逻辑的吗？:P

就算办事情和别人不同组，不要不把别的组放在眼里，看到有问题的也要提醒。
这个我到处可以感觉得到，说实话我认为办在学校的活动筹委会，没有一个办的比学记队好。（外面的活动我不说，那些是另一个水准。）以前和学记办活动，就算你是负责这个department的，可是通过开会还有在面子书的group讨论，我们都知道别的department在做什么。
说说下我在学校遇到的种种事，同样也是一群学生办活动。不是因为能力，却是因为同学之间的玩而被选出来的主席，这我相信很多地方也会遇到，我不多说。然后我们这些“小兵仔”从他们讨论活动到活动前一两个星期，我们都不知道他们的发展。还得等到活动当天才知道流程表。我们就像真的小兵仔一样了，不用知道重要事，只要临场发挥就是了，来活动的小朋友问问题，我们也不知道要怎么给一个正确的答案。
还有一个，真的是没有想到他们会这样做。在活动高潮的晚上，在前面的主持人和他亲密的几位筹委会在台上自high。（过后有没有人告诉他们那些来活动的人有几blur我也不知道。）然后活动结束后，高层们就自己在那里认为goodjob，在社交媒体上发表他们的感谢。
这也不能怪他们啦，谁叫我（或是比较有能力的人）当时没有自愿当高层……

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我仍然是个在学习的路程中，以上的发表并未代表我是个很厉害的人，一定有解决问题。
不过它们确实从我的角度看到的现实，是个不错的提醒，不要如何对待别人。

在此停笔。

Blogging in a lecture

Hi I'm in class now.

Is this my first post after I have started uni? I think so...

A pharmaceutics lecture, and I have my laptop with me. Because I forgot was too busy to print the slides, therefore I'm online now (our slides are uploaded online).

The lecture now is about filters, and I see some very pretty filters, not Instagram filters, but filters like the picture below.

Ok that is not the exactly the filter that is being mentioned in the lecture, but rather the pretty ones look like this:

Sintered Glass Filter

Here's a confession: I never knew that glass wool is made of glass fibres, all these while I thought they were special cotton wools with some magical connection with silicon dioxide.

Something new I learnt from this lecture: filter aids exists. And they are so cool because they act like enzymes by increasing the activity of the filtration!

Ok maybe you don't need to totally understand this picture but I think it should be pretty self-explanatory, all we need to see in summary is the increase of the white arrows.

Of course, there are various types of this magical aids, here's a list:

}Kieselguhr

}It is the most commonly used filter aid, mineral derived from ancient seabed

}Addition of just 0.1% to a slurry containing 20% solid can increase the filtration rate about 5 times

}Talc

}Siliceous earth or clays – perlite is a volcanic mineral

}Charcoals

}Chalk

}Asbestoses

}Magnesium carbonate etc. 

The lecturer wants us to memorize at least 3 of these, but I like the first name, and it sounds very canggih-y so I think I must memorize that.

Me: What is Kieselghur?
Wikipedia: Diatomaceous earth/ˌdaɪ.ətəˌmeɪʃəs ˈɜrθ/, also known as D.E.,diatomite, or kieselgur/kieselguhr, is a naturally occurring, soft, siliceous sedimentary rock that is easily crumbled into a fine white to off-white powder.

Oooooh powder.... and I see "siliceous" sedimentary rock.... I think I'll be studying about glass for quite some time now.

A slide in the lecture. Disclaimer: not by me.

I'm pretty sure a solid (siliceous sedimentary) rock has all these properties. Well maybe except for the specific gravity, it's specific to certain mediums I guess.

Google: "Specific gravity is the ratio of the density of a substance to the density (mass of the same unit volume) of a reference substance."

We already have enough equations for Physical Pharmacy module and there's this Darcy's equation for rate of filtration. Here's how it looks like:

 dV/dt  = KAΔP/µl

I'm not going to explain it here but you are welcomed to think of me as some very smart-in-maths/physics student. :)))

Here's another new thingy, there's something known as filter candles!

Yeah I wish they look like that.

Actually they look like this:

}Filter candles are used for bacterial filtration and sterilization of some pharmaceutical preparations

The candles are made of unglazed porous porcelain or Kieselghur.

(Lecture note: equipment might cost around RM100, but a candle might only cost RM75)

(Canggih apparatus must be made of canggih names.)

There are also other equipment for filtration such as filter press, sintered filters, meta filters, and filter leaf.

And no you don't just pluck a leaf out of a tree to filter bacteria.

Here's a game, find the filter leaf:

I think it's not hard right, now does a filter leaf remind you chlorophyll and sunlight the gold leaf you learnt in Physics class? So technical....

"Coffee plunger is a filter leaf."

"Wait what?"

Moral of the conversation: Physics is everywhere, you can't escape it, you just don't link it.

Ok there's one more physic-y filter, but please bear with this post I promise it is the last one.

Meta filter.

They look like rings but please don't propose to me with that, unless you think that I am a highly viscous liquid, syrups, elixirs, oils, injectibles or insulin.

(But I will still smack you,)

At the end of the lecture I did not know if I had listened to an hour of home economics or pharmaceutics.

But anyway, as technical as they may seem, they are used in the pharmaceutical industry.